Self-Sacrifice

Growing up as a stubborn person surrounded by a stubborn family was no easy task; as we would constantly be at each other's throats. Making decisions as a family was a nightmare for us, deciding where to eat each weekend, or what movie to go see would cause an earthquake in our otherwise somewhat humble home. Decisions that included the entirety of my family were always a challenge and still are today. Although,I will admit that things have significantly improved.

“Masha masha.” my mother says, which translates to “let it go”/”make it work” in Lebense; That phrase has become something I repeat to myself daily. I don’t believe that I change my mind often; however, I don’t have too much trouble allowing other people to get their way if the sacrifice is minimal from me. For example, if I’m arguing with a friend over something that truly holds no importance, I let them think they’re right even if they’re wrong simply to avoid an argument. “Pick your battles wisely,” isn’t that what they say? I’ve found that this phrase has helped me transition my life from a constant state of fighting to the utmost serenity. Well… as much serenity as possible when you feel like you’re on the move all day. I make small sacrifices throughout my day to make my life easier. These days when my dad blames me for something or my mom and I have a disagreement, rather than argue, I simply apologize and let them know that I’ll do better in the future. Some people may believe my methods unorthodox, however, I find myself rather contempt with my decisions. Today, my relationship with my family is something that I’m awfully grateful for, and I long for the weekend when we’re all united running errands, participating in fun activities, or going to see my grandparents. Unlike in the past when I refused to introduce my friends to my family, I now take pride in my family and love introducing them to my friends. I’m so grateful to have the lovely home life my parents have worked so hard to provide me.

Although I may not change my mind frequently, I always try to do my best to ensure everyone around me is happy; and if that means listening to someone talk about something I disagree with, I’ll do it. Today, we live in a society where simply having an opinion has become offensive; and sharing that opinion can cost you everything. For these reasons and more, I don’t use my voice when it’s not needed, instead, I write, and through this unique process, I find that I am the happiest.

— March

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